Sometimes when you pull a weed out of your garden it comes out very easily and sometimes you have to get a big shovel and work really hard to pull it out. That’s what it’s like on this road of emotional healing and self-improvement.
Do you keep a gratitude journal?
I didn’t think I needed to keep one but my lack of gratitude for the little things is that big, tough weed that I pull out but it keeps on coming back! Well today I decided to pull out the BIG GUNS or I guess I mean- big shovel or I might even get all UN Crunchy and use some pesticide on this beeeeaaattch…
I’ve been working on meditating. Today I brought my meditation guide to the beach. It’s not easy to read at the beach in a foreign country with 2 small children and we were right next to a very unforgiving death trap of a sea— so needless to say- I wasn’t doing much reading nor was it my intention to BUT I did plan on doing some meditation while sitting and playing like I hear Angelina Jolie does :)
So when Lilly decided she wanted to be buried up to her chest I figured- yes great idea I can at least do a mantra or 2.
I repeated over and over- I have everything I need. I am thankful for the small things. And without prompting Lilly began repeating me while she was buried. Tears came to my eyes for a few reasons I think- first because I was so happy to be teaching her something at this moment and secondly because I really WAS grateful for the little things and I KNOW I have been feeling so less than grateful. I kind of felt ashamed for NOT being thankful enough when we are SO VERY BLESSED beyond measure but I just always think to myself- I could DO MORE – but taking a deep breath and actually BELIEVING – I – Am – Enough FELT SO FUCKING FREEING and peaceful.
So when we got home and the girls took their nap I got out my journal that I continue to carry around with me but I haven’t written in since January 28.
It is now my daily gratitude journey and I VOW to write it in every single friggin day. Do you do this? Want to start? I’d love to hear about your process for really and truly expressing and harnessing and breathing in your gratitude please email me and tell me about it! — [email protected]
I filled an entire page.
I can’t wait to write more about my gratitude in my journal tomorrow!
*** the book I’m reading is You Have 4 Minutes to Change Your Life by Rebekah Borucki and you should totally get it ASAP here is the LINK